last words

today is a hard day.  one year ago today, nana passed away.  i remember the last time i saw her.. 
 i took c up to visit her and grandpa in the nursing home and we sat beside each other, and she reached over to me and held my hand. 
 we had tea with mom, aunt b and some of the other residents.  
when i was getting ready to leave, my last words to her were "love you nan" and hers to me "love you too dear"
there's alot of things that i miss about her, the way she sat with one arm crossed over her belly, and the other touching her face.  that she always had a kleenex tucked in her sleeve.  even short sleeves.  the warmth of their house and the "hi... oh it's you"  that greeted you when you came thru the door.   i miss her smile and her laugh.. the instant coffee with canned milk.  i miss her cooking (a little burnt around the edges).  i miss her collection of angels and all the rings on her fingers.  
there's not a day that's gone by in the last year that i haven't thought about her, and although i know she's in a better place, i sure miss having her here...


love you nan.